I'm officially 16 on August 27th yay happy birthday to me :")
So can I just say that I haven't been through all highs and lows yet I'm already tired. I've only been living on this beautiful earth for 16 flipping years.
Can you sense sarcasm?
But actually, I just can't believe what I have been going through in this last 16 years. The struggle, tears, laughter, happiness, sadness, it's all in the past now. Written by good people surround me and buried deep in the memory of mine.
Wow such a good words came out from my finger. Proud moment.
If I think about the past, compare what happened a year ago with today, oh I'm so grateful. Let the old friends of mine stopped writing good memories and let them walk away as the new friends come and make new good even better memories.
Sigh I swear I don't know how I could write that wise words.
Sigh I swear I don't know how I could write that wise words.
Okay let's talk about my birthday. It has been the best birthday because this year I feel so loved by people I care about. They should be considered 'strangers' but I feel like I have sisters all around the world. Thanks for The Wanted, I have beautiful idols and beautiful good friends.
The Wanted. I swear I can't thank them enough. They make me extremely happy. The tears I've dropped is uncountable. Happy tears, sad tears, I share it with TWFanmily a.k.a. my second family. I started talking to them like 4 months ago, they just so lovely and make me smile so much.
If any of you read this, I just want to say don't stop smiling. I know it hurts to keep smiling through hard times but your smile is the most beautiful thing in my entire world. You know who you are ;)
And maybe I haven't talked to some of my favorite fanmily members (some of them aren't even following me bahaha) but they are too perfect they make me smile and happy. It's just too intimidating to start a conversation since I'm extremely an awfully awkward person and I'm so scared if I will annoy them. But you make me smile. Remember that.
The Wanted. I swear I can't thank them enough. They make me extremely happy. The tears I've dropped is uncountable. Happy tears, sad tears, I share it with TWFanmily a.k.a. my second family. I started talking to them like 4 months ago, they just so lovely and make me smile so much.
If any of you read this, I just want to say don't stop smiling. I know it hurts to keep smiling through hard times but your smile is the most beautiful thing in my entire world. You know who you are ;)
And maybe I haven't talked to some of my favorite fanmily members (some of them aren't even following me bahaha) but they are too perfect they make me smile and happy. It's just too intimidating to start a conversation since I'm extremely an awfully awkward person and I'm so scared if I will annoy them. But you make me smile. Remember that.
To be honest, I want to talk about The Wanted but why did I keep talking about TWFanmily tho? Yeah I love them that much.
The Wanted are my sunshines and Nathan Sykes is my brightest sunshine. Don't get me wrong, I love them equally but Nathan is special for me. Cheesy, isn't it? Everyone said I like him because he has beautiful face. NO. I mean, okay I see no flaws on his face but when I see his name popping out of nowhere it makes me smile like an idiot. He has such an angelic voice and heart that you rarely found on this earth nowadays. He keeps trying to people smile even though he is on his lowest. He makes me smile.
The Wanted are my sunshines and Nathan Sykes is my brightest sunshine. Don't get me wrong, I love them equally but Nathan is special for me. Cheesy, isn't it? Everyone said I like him because he has beautiful face. NO. I mean, okay I see no flaws on his face but when I see his name popping out of nowhere it makes me smile like an idiot. He has such an angelic voice and heart that you rarely found on this earth nowadays. He keeps trying to people smile even though he is on his lowest. He makes me smile.
It all started on August 20th - a week before my birthday. It was just a basic Wednesday evening; got home from my tiring school, watching tv, and desperately need Nathan to notice me. He hadn't been tweeting properly for like 2 weeks, of course I was desperate. And something awful happened to me that day at school. Nothing was so special that day. I didn't see something awesome would happen.
To be honest, I started to give up on Nathan follow (or anyone of The Wanted follow). I tried everything, but they seemed don't care much, especially Nathan. He kept getting hate when he tweeted, maybe that's why he didn't tweet that long. But he creeped - he faved tweets from people, and I kept wishing he notice me.
The worst part was when he did a follow spree and HE DIDN'T EVEN TWEET AND I WAS IN BANDUNG AND HE DID THAT WHILE I'M SLEEPING (timezones sucks) then when I woke up, I saw his following increased by 100+. I cried. All my mutuals that had 0/6 they had 1/6 then. And then there was me, who had been trying for 2 and half years to get noticed by my sunshine. I was like "Okay maybe Nathan really hates me" and crying.
To be honest, I started to give up on Nathan follow (or anyone of The Wanted follow). I tried everything, but they seemed don't care much, especially Nathan. He kept getting hate when he tweeted, maybe that's why he didn't tweet that long. But he creeped - he faved tweets from people, and I kept wishing he notice me.
The worst part was when he did a follow spree and HE DIDN'T EVEN TWEET AND I WAS IN BANDUNG AND HE DID THAT WHILE I'M SLEEPING (timezones sucks) then when I woke up, I saw his following increased by 100+. I cried. All my mutuals that had 0/6 they had 1/6 then. And then there was me, who had been trying for 2 and half years to get noticed by my sunshine. I was like "Okay maybe Nathan really hates me" and crying.
A lot of my mutuals said "it will come when you least expect it" and I was like how on earth can't I expect something?! I thought it wasn't true, because every time I sent Nathan tweets I always expected a reply or a follow, and it broke my heart a lot of times because he didn't even notice.
Okay, back to August 20th - I started to send Nathan only a couple of tweets, and was hoping for Nathan to see those tweets I've sent - I still do it daily haha. And I started to talk to some of the fanmily members, and they said 'good luck' and something like that, it made me smile a lot.
And I decided to take a shower. A long shower. Because I was too desperate. I was tired. BUT not in a second I thought about Nathan. I didn't know. All I thought about was school stuffs. Not about the subjects or else, I started to feel no one cares about me. I felt lonely.
After I took a shower, I prepared to do my Bahasa assignment; to make 10 stars and stuffs. Sigh. I took my phone, replied to the fanmily I was talking to. She was so nice, she praised my artworks I sent to Nathan - the tweets already had 200+ RTs but Nathan still hadn't noticed me. I smiled and was so happy every time someone did that tho. I sent a couple of tweets to Nathan - No, I wasn't spamming him. It was just like usual tweets I often sent to him daily.
So I started to do my assignment. After I made like 4 stars, I forgot to bring something. So I went to my room upstairs and brought my phone with me. I got the thing I forgot, then went back downstairs. While I was walking down the stairs slowly, I checked on my phone. It had twitter notifications. Oh, maybe it was from her, I mumbled. I opened it.
Yes, it was from her. But she was like spamming me to Nathan like 5 times. i thought, oh okay that's good.
But then something caught my eyes and it made me stop walking down the stairs.
I saw "(blah blah blah) and Nathan Sykes followed you" on my notifications.
Okay, back to August 20th - I started to send Nathan only a couple of tweets, and was hoping for Nathan to see those tweets I've sent - I still do it daily haha. And I started to talk to some of the fanmily members, and they said 'good luck' and something like that, it made me smile a lot.
And I decided to take a shower. A long shower. Because I was too desperate. I was tired. BUT not in a second I thought about Nathan. I didn't know. All I thought about was school stuffs. Not about the subjects or else, I started to feel no one cares about me. I felt lonely.
After I took a shower, I prepared to do my Bahasa assignment; to make 10 stars and stuffs. Sigh. I took my phone, replied to the fanmily I was talking to. She was so nice, she praised my artworks I sent to Nathan - the tweets already had 200+ RTs but Nathan still hadn't noticed me. I smiled and was so happy every time someone did that tho. I sent a couple of tweets to Nathan - No, I wasn't spamming him. It was just like usual tweets I often sent to him daily.
So I started to do my assignment. After I made like 4 stars, I forgot to bring something. So I went to my room upstairs and brought my phone with me. I got the thing I forgot, then went back downstairs. While I was walking down the stairs slowly, I checked on my phone. It had twitter notifications. Oh, maybe it was from her, I mumbled. I opened it.
Yes, it was from her. But she was like spamming me to Nathan like 5 times. i thought, oh okay that's good.
But then something caught my eyes and it made me stop walking down the stairs.
I saw "(blah blah blah) and Nathan Sykes followed you" on my notifications.
Probably nothing, I was getting used to when fake Nathan accounts followed me. Beside, I didn't want to have an high expectation of him follows me.
I casually opened the notifications. I expected something like "congratulations! I just gave you a heart attack!" but what I read really made me shocked.
"21!!! Why can't you have emojis in your bio ... *monkey covering eyes emoji*"
And I saw verified logo beside his username.
I felt my legs weakened, I literally fell off from the stairs (well I left some bruises on my legs but it was worth it) and started screaming and crying. Was it true? I couldn't open his profile because I barely got signal and my hands were shaking so hard. My maid even asked me "WHAT'S WRONG" and I answered with a shaking voice "n-n-no-nothing" and started crying again when my phone finally loaded his profile and saw 'follows you' beside his username.
After a full 8 minutes of crying (no exaggerating) I could control myself. I screenshot-ed his profile and tweeted this:
Everyone started to congratulate me. At that moment, all I thought about was he followed me a week before my birthday! I couldn't be more grateful. I couldn't think what could be the better things.
I felt so special tho. He followed 9 people on that day and I was one of them! Some of them are even my mutuals! I was so happy. I told my real-life friends too. I shared the picture on Instagram, and everywhere!
MY SUNSHINE NOTICED ME.
-I'm gonna skip the story by the way, and tell you a bit about my birthday, if you don't mind-
It was a week after Nathan followed me. Yes, it was my birthday! I couldn't stop smiling. I even made the picture of his profile as my lockscreen, so it would remind me to smile haha.
It was an usual Wednesday at first. I arrived at school almost late so I didn't have time to say hi to my friend who are in the different classes. The funniest part was it was only one person who remembered my birthday tho. Hahahaha!
Time flew so fast. And finally my friends remembered my birthday! Although the school was almost over haha. Maybe not all of them, but yeah never mind I'm not that famous tho and I don't mind.
I kept spamming Nathan on direct message so he could see that and wish me a happy birthday. I was expecting him to say a simple "Happy Birthday", really. Just those two words would complete my birthday. I didn't think about higher expectations.
On my way back from school, I started replying to birthday messages on my twitter. I never had that much notifications like ever. Some of them were sending me cute messages which made me literally sobbing. I didn't know there are some people who care about me.
When I reached home, it was 6 PM. I was tired. So I ended up lying on my bed for an hour. But I realized there was a math exam on the next day. So I started revising. After another hour, my dad called me and asked if I want to pick my mom up at McDonald's. And I said sure why not. Before we left, I sent Nathan a couple of direct messages.
So we headed to McDonald's. On our way to there, I realized I didn't have any internet data left. I was silently mad because I was scared I couldn't spam Nathan and I only had less than 4 hours left of my birthday. I asked my dad to buy me some data package, and he said yes and we stopped at a mini market. Skip some parts, there was an error occurred. I swore I was so sad and almost cried but no I didn't.
Finally we arrived at McDonald's. And I remembered I hadn't had my dinner so I ate McDonald's at 9 pm haha I felt so healthy (sarcasm tho). I enjoyed some family time, not worrying about other things.
We decided to go home at about 10 PM. On our way to home, my mom turned the wi-fi on and my phone automatically connected to the wi-fi. I thought yes I can spam Nathan again. My phone notifications started popping out. I saw some whatsapp notifications, mentions, Line, Blackberry Messenger, and...
I casually opened the notifications. I expected something like "congratulations! I just gave you a heart attack!" but what I read really made me shocked.
"21!!! Why can't you have emojis in your bio ... *monkey covering eyes emoji*"
And I saw verified logo beside his username.
I felt my legs weakened, I literally fell off from the stairs (well I left some bruises on my legs but it was worth it) and started screaming and crying. Was it true? I couldn't open his profile because I barely got signal and my hands were shaking so hard. My maid even asked me "WHAT'S WRONG" and I answered with a shaking voice "n-n-no-nothing" and started crying again when my phone finally loaded his profile and saw 'follows you' beside his username.
After a full 8 minutes of crying (no exaggerating) I could control myself. I screenshot-ed his profile and tweeted this:
Everyone started to congratulate me. At that moment, all I thought about was he followed me a week before my birthday! I couldn't be more grateful. I couldn't think what could be the better things.
I felt so special tho. He followed 9 people on that day and I was one of them! Some of them are even my mutuals! I was so happy. I told my real-life friends too. I shared the picture on Instagram, and everywhere!
MY SUNSHINE NOTICED ME.
-I'm gonna skip the story by the way, and tell you a bit about my birthday, if you don't mind-
It was a week after Nathan followed me. Yes, it was my birthday! I couldn't stop smiling. I even made the picture of his profile as my lockscreen, so it would remind me to smile haha.
It was an usual Wednesday at first. I arrived at school almost late so I didn't have time to say hi to my friend who are in the different classes. The funniest part was it was only one person who remembered my birthday tho. Hahahaha!
Time flew so fast. And finally my friends remembered my birthday! Although the school was almost over haha. Maybe not all of them, but yeah never mind I'm not that famous tho and I don't mind.
I kept spamming Nathan on direct message so he could see that and wish me a happy birthday. I was expecting him to say a simple "Happy Birthday", really. Just those two words would complete my birthday. I didn't think about higher expectations.
On my way back from school, I started replying to birthday messages on my twitter. I never had that much notifications like ever. Some of them were sending me cute messages which made me literally sobbing. I didn't know there are some people who care about me.
When I reached home, it was 6 PM. I was tired. So I ended up lying on my bed for an hour. But I realized there was a math exam on the next day. So I started revising. After another hour, my dad called me and asked if I want to pick my mom up at McDonald's. And I said sure why not. Before we left, I sent Nathan a couple of direct messages.
So we headed to McDonald's. On our way to there, I realized I didn't have any internet data left. I was silently mad because I was scared I couldn't spam Nathan and I only had less than 4 hours left of my birthday. I asked my dad to buy me some data package, and he said yes and we stopped at a mini market. Skip some parts, there was an error occurred. I swore I was so sad and almost cried but no I didn't.
Finally we arrived at McDonald's. And I remembered I hadn't had my dinner so I ate McDonald's at 9 pm haha I felt so healthy (sarcasm tho). I enjoyed some family time, not worrying about other things.
We decided to go home at about 10 PM. On our way to home, my mom turned the wi-fi on and my phone automatically connected to the wi-fi. I thought yes I can spam Nathan again. My phone notifications started popping out. I saw some whatsapp notifications, mentions, Line, Blackberry Messenger, and...
... I saw "New Direct Messages" and under those words I saw my friend's name and Nathan Sykes.
Wait, what?
I let out some weird voices in the car which made my parents confused and asked me "What's wrong?" and I said "nothing". I swore I was so scared to opened in case it was just a fake account or it was an error from my twitter app. After a minute of staring on my phone, I finally opened it.
Wait, what?
I let out some weird voices in the car which made my parents confused and asked me "What's wrong?" and I said "nothing". I swore I was so scared to opened in case it was just a fake account or it was an error from my twitter app. After a minute of staring on my phone, I finally opened it.
And I thought I died.
Nathan Sykes messaged me:
It was a real-time, I took the picture at 10:14 PM (GMT +7)
I screenshot-ed it right away, by the way. I looked at the username, I read the message, I noticed the time he sent the message. I was like 14 minutes late. And I noticed the last message I sent to him was at about 8 PM and he replied at 10 PM.
Wait, did he just creep on me?
I wasn't sure.
Nathan Sykes messaged me:
It was a real-time, I took the picture at 10:14 PM (GMT +7)
I screenshot-ed it right away, by the way. I looked at the username, I read the message, I noticed the time he sent the message. I was like 14 minutes late. And I noticed the last message I sent to him was at about 8 PM and he replied at 10 PM.
Wait, did he just creep on me?
I wasn't sure.
I couldn't think properly, to be honest. It was unreal. My sunshine wished me a happy birthday!
I told my mom about it right away, and she was like "What? Who is that?" oh my god, mom. I said, "It's Nathan Sykes from The Wanted! He wished me a happy birthday!" and my dad was like "Oh, Nathan Sykes from The Wanted?" and I was like "Yes!!" Oh my god.
I posted it on my twitter:
And my notifications were exploding! The amount of notifications I got was crazy. And I wasn't even at home.
When I arrived, I went to my room and started screaming. Once I calmed down, I looked at it again.
He called me 'babe'.
Wait, what?
And he told me to enjoy my day.
Did Nathan really say that to me?
I WAS CALLED 'BABE' BY NATHAN SYKES A.K.A. MY SUNSHINE.
OH MY GOD HE KNEW I EXIST.
I was too tired to tell my real-life friends about it. So I went to sleep.
The next day, I woke up and getting ready for school. I posted Nathan's birthday message for me on Line, and so far I got 14 likes hahahaha. Until 2 days after my birthday, my friends kept congratulating me.
I told my mom about it right away, and she was like "What? Who is that?" oh my god, mom. I said, "It's Nathan Sykes from The Wanted! He wished me a happy birthday!" and my dad was like "Oh, Nathan Sykes from The Wanted?" and I was like "Yes!!" Oh my god.
I posted it on my twitter:
And my notifications were exploding! The amount of notifications I got was crazy. And I wasn't even at home.
When I arrived, I went to my room and started screaming. Once I calmed down, I looked at it again.
He called me 'babe'.
Wait, what?
And he told me to enjoy my day.
Did Nathan really say that to me?
I WAS CALLED 'BABE' BY NATHAN SYKES A.K.A. MY SUNSHINE.
OH MY GOD HE KNEW I EXIST.
I was too tired to tell my real-life friends about it. So I went to sleep.
The next day, I woke up and getting ready for school. I posted Nathan's birthday message for me on Line, and so far I got 14 likes hahahaha. Until 2 days after my birthday, my friends kept congratulating me.
That's my story. One of my friends gave me an angry bird (sort of, i don't know) and some of them even gave me money BAHAHAHAHA genius!
But Nathan gave me an ultimate birthday present. He makes my entire year. He brightens my day everyday. After 2 and half years of waiting, exactly 4 months after I made my fan account, a week before my birthday finally he followed me. And on my birthday he messaged me, wished me a happy birthday, called me 'babe', and told me to enjoy my day.
He did the simplest thing but it can make me smile everyday.
It was the best birthday ever.
But Nathan gave me an ultimate birthday present. He makes my entire year. He brightens my day everyday. After 2 and half years of waiting, exactly 4 months after I made my fan account, a week before my birthday finally he followed me. And on my birthday he messaged me, wished me a happy birthday, called me 'babe', and told me to enjoy my day.
He did the simplest thing but it can make me smile everyday.
It was the best birthday ever.
And with this post, I want to thank you all for helping me to get noticed by my sunshine. Y'all rock, guys! I can't thank you enough.
Gotta go! Thank you for reading this cheesy post. Bye💕
Gotta go! Thank you for reading this cheesy post. Bye💕
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