Weekly Post #3: What A Ride

Hi, my name is Amelia and, quoting Dan, I constantly surprise myself with how low I can get in life, instead of YouTube.

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Me again back at it again with the third weekly post. This week has been a rollercoaster for me. Just want to tell you that this all comes in a chronological order so it really felt like a roller coaster.


Day Out with Old Friends

I went to the cinema with my high school friends (wow very social much exciting). We watched The Greatest Showman!!! It was amazing. I got chills from every number on the movie. I haven't listened to the soundtrack album because I'm. Not. Ready. And I don't think I will ever be.

After that, we did some shopping, eating, gossiping, playing arcade games, and finally went home. All the money I've saved for the past 2 weeks was well-spent that evening.


Finally Opened Up about My GPA to My Parents?

Y'all remember me talking about my GPA in the first weekly post, right? Here's the thing...

I failed 2 classes.

And I haven't told my parents about the other one. They only knew I failed physics. And this is where it went downhill... I kept it as a secret, as I already knew the solution to my problem. But then I would always be lying when they asked about my GPA. I never hide something to my parents, and this was a huge problem for me because I started to stay away from them and shut myself out. I'm a mess when I do that. 

I didn't even cry--I couldn't. I kept telling myself that if I cry, then I truly lose and I'll never get up. Because of shutting-myself-out situation, especially with my parents, I felt like I was crawling into depression, again. It wasn't good. All the negative thoughts were flooding in my brain. Too many 'what if's, bad scenarios that happened in my thoughts. 

It was extremely difficult. I did that for 12 days. Since day 7 I've tried to open up but I couldn't find the right moment. There's no way we were having fun and I suddenly blurted out "so actually I didn't pass 2 classes, sorry". They never actually asked me, so it was kinda hard to open up.

And then... It was a fine evening. My parents were just coming home from work. After like an hour or so I was chilling with my dad when he asked the ultimate question,

"How's your GPA?"

And, I kid you not, I cried like a mess. I told him I didn't pass another different class. He said, it's okay, maybe it was hard, but it's okay. I also told my mom like a few minutes later and it was much easier.

I was SO relieved that day. Well, not completely, but I think I'll survive.


Driver's License!!!

Yep, move on from my GPA, I actually got my driver's license this week!!! It was cool and rainy, that's all I got to say. I can't actually grasp the fact that I'm a fully adult and I can totally feel the weight of responsibility.


Weird Online Carpool Experience

Well after I took care of my driver's license, long story short, my parents ordered a car for my youngest brother at home because we had things to do but we couldn't go back to house; we couldn't make it in time. So we did and we got a driver which was our neighbor. It was fine and all until we got a message saying,

"Don't play games with neighbors"

LMAOOOO WHAT EVEN my dad lost it immediately! He called him and they were arguing for so long. I've never seen my dad did that. It was insane.


Weekly Obsession

I started watching Sense8, at last. It's good, exactly like everyone says! Deserves 9 out of 10. For music, I recently found a song called Turn Back Time by Daniel Schulz and it's a freaking bop and a half. I also can't stop playing the soundtrack album of The Greatest Showman. It was a good week for my ears as they were fully blessed.

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This week has been cool, the only thing is I wish I could write more as I have a lot of things to write but I'm busy watching series lmao okay bye


WEEK 3: Done

Weekly Post #2: Movie Night, Arcade Game, and... fangirl stuff

Hi, my name is Amelia and I use laughing as a coping mechanism in case I get hurt at my own jokes.

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It's week two of 2018 and I'm bored as hell sitting at home doing nothing. Like. I'm not joking. All I did was getting up after 11 AM, eating, and going back to bed lmao what is my life.


Movie Night

I went to the cinema with my mom to see Insidious: The Last Key. It's not even scary? Not many jumpscares but the one at the police station though--I shit myself, kid you not. Literally 5 people walked out and I believe they never came back.

But for real, the audience is waaay more interesting than the movie.

1. A man talking on his cellphone for 3 minutes in one of the most quiet scene of the movie. It's just straight-off annoying! He even dared to use a normal voice which was, in this case, really loud and people already told him whether to lower his voice, turn the phone off or just go out if it's really that important and guess what he did? None of them! Can't believe there's some people who are that ignorant and I'm not gonna give two shits about them.
2. A baby crying. Honestly this is worse than the first one; if not worst. It's a horror movie, for god's sake. The baby would cry and scream whenever there's a tiny jumpscare and GOD for moms with babies out there, if you want to see a horror movie PLEASE get a babysitter first. I believe it's not just me who's disturbed by it; I heard people shushing quietly but I don't know, maybe they also feel bad? 
3. Another ignorant man who sat two seats beside my mom. This guy wore shoes which probably a bit bigger on the front of his foot? So, quoting my mom, he constantly moved his feet and unconsciously kicked the seat in front of him. This poor man had enough and told him to stop moving but the big foot guy felt like he did nothing wrong because he didn't deliberately kick the seat. Dude, it's not about who's right or wrong, just let people enjoy the movie without getting his seat kicked.

At least this experience is way better than the last time I saw a movie with my mom--there was an earthquake (22/12/2017). Beat that, 2018.

Weekly Post #1: Road Trip, GPA, 2017 Spotify Playlists

Hi, my name is Amelia and I like to get stressed over little things which are only getting bigger progressively because I always overthink about it but doesn't really try to find a solution.


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IT'S A WEEKLY POST!

Welcome to the first weekly post! I'm thrilled to finally start doing this. This is where I post ~random~ things that happened this week. 

God am I so bad at writing introductions



Road Trip

I'm writing this exact sentence in Lembang. I don't know why but I swear we had have a road trip to Solo exactly last month. It's probably my dad. I have no idea. 


day one:

It's all too sudden, though. I was doing my morning routine (well, guess what, it's oversleep until 11 AM) and my mom just stormed into my room--she only does that when she wants to say something EXTREMELY important--and said

"get dressed and pack your things; we're going in an hour."

Whaaat lmao I couldn't even wrap my head around it. My conciousness was lost in the dream I was having. I asked my mom what time it was because I couldn't even find my phone (it was lying beside me). When I did find my phone, I realized it's Thursday... Oh okay it's weird, did I go to another different dream? 

Long story short, we picked my brother up at school, had lunch, got stuck in traffic (as usual), and finally arrived 7 hours later!

After two hours of just breathing and lying on bed, we went for dinner. Because it was too late, we drove half an hour to a 24-hour diner (I didn't know there were plenty of them there), bought more snacks, and headed back to the hotel. 

The most random thing happened in the car at 11 PM when my brother started singing Man's Not Hot. I joined in, happily. My parents were having mixed feelings; sleepy, confused, and regret.

HAPPY 2018! - Things That Have Happened and Future Plans for This Blog

We have officially left 2017 behind and I couldn't be more happier! 

2017 was...bad. I dare to say it's by far the worst year. But I'm glad it was bad; it taught me to be a better person, in an awful way. If this is the first post you read in my blog, well, let me tell you. 

In 2017, I:

1. Started the year off with the worst mood ever
   I mean, it wasn't that bad. I was in a uni break for a month in January. But this annual event that was held in that exact month which i thought would be great turned out to be...unpleasant. Note to self: don't be a committee for the next year (P.S.: Best decision I've made because look at me now with all my free time)
2. Had a fight with my parents
   Well.... This was kind of my fault? I remember in April I had more fight with my dad than most of my life, and in May with my mom. I guess it was partly because of my mental health.
3. Went Through a Mental Breakdown
   This was the highlight of the year for me because it was such a bad experience. Read my #WorldMentalHealthDay post to know more about it #spon
4. Had a bad birthday experience (if not the worst)
   I don't know how to tell this without sounding ungrateful but....people didn't know my birthday, and it was on a Sunday. No one said happy birthday to me on the exact day of my birthday. Well there are three people but I do believe I have more than 3 friends...right? But worry not because the next day I 'announced' that the day before was my birthday and everyone freaked out and I was so anxious and too thirsty to get attention lmao so thanks, people.

I know they weren't the best memories of 2017 but I honestly can't remember what's good about it. But I'm trying to remember: Game of Thrones, road trips twice in 2017, my cousin's wedding (okay this wasn't that good because we spent 8+ hours there!!!!), and....more? I swear I can't remember lol

What I do believe is what makes a year wonderful is myself, yourself, and all people themselves so let's make 2018 count! I can feel it's going to be great.

Wow where do I get the optimism?

Now I'm going to tell you about my future plans for this blog as I have loads of ideas in my head (it'll be gone in a week?):

• Weekly Posts every Saturday
  I'll try to post regularly once a week on Saturdays Sundays with different stuffs but same format: what happened that week, what I've accomplished, and weekly obsession. Maybe I'll add more. 
• Random Stuff?
  I don't really know about this but I'll try to post more, not just on Saturdays but it will be random.
• Monthly Favorites on the start of the months
  This is a recap from the weekly posts and more; things I buy, places I go, etc

And those are what I'm planning! As you noticed I changed the domain after a year because I was not into my previous domain. I like the current domain more so I stick to the theme; I changed background, font, etc etc

I'm gonna be honest, though, I originally wanted to move my blog to weebly. It was cool, and I was gonna post this on there but I just...I didn't like the layout and I didn't have more time to edit it. So we're back here. I just like my blog to be simple and with weebly, I don't have time to customize it.

That was it. Expect more content in 2018 lol